jesus christ. i have just begun to accept the fact that sean probably won’t give me the time of day anymore, i just have to trust that if i can get through a year with being thrown around through his wants and needs and untouched and feeling so little love that i can get through anything even him abandoning me and putting me secondary towards everything. it’s fucked up how some people change even after giving them your heart for almost 4 years.
someone out there is going to be so lucky to meet me and fall for me, and i will treat them like i have him, with all of my heart and soul. i can’t settle for bullshit
there is something very right happening.